Jan 13 2009
Sabotage Self-Worth — How Does Not Loving Yourself Play Out in Your World? Part 2
The consciousness of your energy structure unconsciously projects out what is going on at your deep core level. A façade cannot hide your fears and your baggage. These are the inner conflicting qualities that are projecting out into the community. They are seen within family feuds, community bickering, bureaucratic rules, the serpents of society and global wars.
7 Points on how does ‘not loving yourself’ play out in your world?
* Not loving yourself is contaminating your body with chemicals from inhaling/eating toxic substances that gives a highly addictive-abusive quality that self-destructs the physical.
* Not loving yourself is drinking fluids that produce a drunken lethargic body that does not want to exercise. * Not loving yourself is indulging in foods – the rich sweets and fast foods — the pick-me-ups that produce a swollen gas-filled belly and to store a cloth of fat to protect yourself from not being loved by yourself.
* Not loving yourself is having moods of back stabbing squabbles, snorting in judgmental discontent and creating the bad habits of fighting, manipulating and controlling others in your world.
* Not loving yourself is allowing others to control you, to feed off you, to disempower you to enslave your energy through judgments, appeasement, agendas, obligation and compromise.
* Not loving yourself is feeding yourself with complaining, festering fearful thoughts of belittlement, judgment, disliking self from out-dated and worn-out beliefs or even being physically or mentally attached and obsessed to something or a dependent relationship outside of yourself.
* Not loving yourself is thinking that you do not deserve something, that you must be punished for a sin or error, and that you are not allowing yourself to receive the abundance and the empowerment that you can claim. Your heart cries out to receive your worth. Instead you live with ‘just enough to survive’ that is filled with suffering, hardship and effort — a belief in ‘no pain — no gain’.
The Dualistic Imbalance
* At one over-inflated level of the ego – not loving yourself can contain force, greed and power, through the fear of not being in control and ownership over yourself. It then takes on a quality of trying to control, force, fight, steal and feed-off others to get what you want–to gain love.
* At the bottom level of a squashed ego–not loving yourself is having unworthy, disempowering and self-denial, ‘just enough’ concepts. It is about lacking physical pleasures and comforts that lead to poverty – instead of living in a wonderful abundant environment.
Then what is the deeper energy involved in self-love?
Self-love is not vanity, selfishness or arrogance! All these negative qualities are not love. They are a FEAR!
The fear for you not to love yourself is an imbalance and a lack. It is an over inflated poor self-esteem or a low self-worth inflicted by an unbalanced egotistical intellect, reinforced by mass consciousness hypnotic belief system and overlays. It allows inferiority and unworthiness to surface – to be replaced by an ‘instead’. These issues bring a feeling that you are not good enough, that you have done something wrong, that you feel that you have sinned, a mistake by your creations, an a high power force must save you — and that has created karma of cause and effect. You think you need to be punished for your mistakes and therefore you need to suffer. Look at the world and you will see suffering, hardship, punishment and struggling with ‘just enough to survive’. Then you feel that you don’t deserve. This leaves you with a feeling of guilt, shame and resistance – a destructive energy that destroys what you have built. Resistance brings pain and pain brings suffering – is a rigid belief system of an unbalanced perceptions.
The fear of the indoctrinated belief that self-love is vain, selfish and egotistical to love yourself has allowed you to accept these fearful rules, taught conditions and dogmatic standards within mass consciousness as being true for you. To serve others first and not to love the self was written in the scriptures to bring fear, control and greed upon the masses. The consciousness at the time was low, cruel, barbaric and harsh and it was appropriate at the time. Times have changed; consciousness has risen in a modern technological era, to where these handed down beliefs do not serve you anymore.
When you cannot love and accept yourself, when you are angry, spiteful, jealous and judgmental etc, you are an empty vessel and an empty vessel has nothing to give other than your fearful baggage, agendas and burdens. Yet an empty vessel cannot receive love and abundance because you are in so much denial of accepting yourself or of trying to give everything to others that you ‘miss the boat’ — so to speak and ignore any opportunities that come your way to receive. When you keep giving to others, and you cannot receive you will begin to complain, stating that ‘no one supports you’ that ‘no one appreciates what you do’ and so on.
It is time to let go of old way, old belief structures that have been passed down for centuries. By learning to love yourself, to accept yourself, to honour your 100 percent worth that you have inherited since birth, you will realize that all of your experiences have been about the percentage level of how you have seen yourself, how you have treated yourself and how much you thought you deserved something. Now with a new expanded perception you can still love the worth of yourself without feeding off and disempowering or stealing energies from others and vice versa. The balance is just that — ‘you can have your cake and eat it’ — you can love yourself, you can give yourself the treasures of what life has to offer and you can give that to others along with your compassion, acceptance, honour and blessings and to serve others too if and when they choose to accept it.






